EM: I never really KNEW I was going to be a musician until the first time we hit the stage. F.I.L.T.H is the only band I had ever really been in. A few years back, we played our first show under a different name. I was nervous, irritable, and just ready to burst that whole night. When our intro hit on the stage and the curtain dropped...that was it. When I saw people standing in front of the stage, sweaty, drunk, and tired, but ready to hear some music, that was when the excitement really hit me and I realized that I wanted, I NEEDED this feeling to be a part of my life in some capacity.